I have written this before. But I was always one of those who did not want to deal with things which was quite hurtful at that time. I became so good at distracting so that I didn’t have to feel upset.
You know, feeling upset is such an energy drainer.
some little things happen throughout a day. I tell myself “look at a positive side” and I do. I feel better
then something else happens. I tell myself “that is not that bad” and I suppose it is not that bad.
I wonder if that is part of “positive thinking” ? or just not me dealing with them.
I’ve had a few nightmares lately.
I kept imaging really bad things that is so unlikely to happen.
I don’t know why.
is it because I am looking for something to make me feel dramatically sad and upset? or is it because I feel I don’t deserve to be happy? Or maybe I still haven’t let go of the fear that i had experienced in the past.
My sexual abuse in my childhood to feeling of isolation after moving to a new land when i was 15 to separation from my daughter’s father to my physical illnesses. I don’t know if I really dealt with these. But how much is enough?
While I was feeling of disgust, sadness, disbelief, fear, loneliness and self doubt, I still told people that I was ok, and I thought I was ok.
it is just a story, isn’t it?
I look back what has happened in my life and there are not one single thing that I regret or wish it didn’t happen. I don’t wish them for anyone, but I am grateful for who I am now because of those experiences. Have I learnt a lesson from these? Can I do this with not really letting go?
About 6 months ago I went to see this person. It was the first time and only time I dug in so deep that it hurt so much. I told 12 year old me that it was not her fault and gave her the tightest hug while I had so much tears overflowing. I asked the question I always wanted to ask. Martina gave me a safe place to open up after all these years. She is a powerful yet compassionate soul, so real, so loving.
I am honoured to have her at Shokuiku for a workshop.
I would love you to come and share the time with us
Opening your heart through Tantra. May 28 @ 6:00 pm – 8:00 pm
Martina Hughes of Tantric Blossoming will support you to open your heart, embody a deeper connection within your body and increase the levels of pleasure within your body. Martina has been working with men and women for over 10 years to open their bodies and enhance vitality, passion and connection throughout life through tantric practices. With tantra, you can experience a deep homecoming to yourself, which will change the way you move, engage and relate throughout your life.
In Martina’s words: “Through my own journey I realised that my tenderness, my receptivity and lovingness, my intuition and beauty were to be shared, rather than locked away inside as they had been for many years. With the gift of Tantra, my life transformed forever, I knew that having come home to myself in this way, there was no way out, that I could be at peace with all the feelings and experiences that move through me, that I could trust myself and feel safe in my body and enjoy incredible pleasure. And so with the discovery of Tantra and coming home to myself, I also discovered my life’s work. Tantra has been and continues to be my greatest teacher – for me, tantra is about all of life – the way I eat, the way I treat my body, the way I meditate, the way I relate to friends and family, the way I connect with my intimate partner as well as how I experience my sexual energy. It’s been an amazing journey and I love how clients inspire me to continue expanding in creativity to find new ways to share what I have received. I look forward to having the opportunity to share these gifts with you.”
Come along to this evening to learn how tantra can be applied in your life today – whether you are single or in a relationship. There will be discussions, practices and question and answer time.
Shokuiku will be serving 2 course dinner between the workshop.
investment $65 including dinnerShokuiku reserves the right to alter or cancel a course without notice Cancellations are to be made at least 5 days before the scheduled date if you should be unable to attend a class. Otherwise the payments are non-refundable (unless we have cancel the class)
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